my STORY
no matter what is going on in your life, if there is something you feel should be different – that is your call.
Hey there, I’m Alyssa!
3/5 mental projector, intuitive guide, teacher & leader
I’ve had two big events in my life that I really struggled to adjust to and honestly, I felt extremely alone in…
I’m an open book, with an open mind + curious Soul
finding more isn’t finding something outside of you but unlocking something inside of you
The first was when we decided we were ready to start a family and that’s when it felt like my life really turned upside down. When it didn’t happen right away, it didn’t take long at all for me to start to worry. Then, we got the news we were hoping for – then on the day we got possession of the home we built, was the day we lost our first pregnancy. I wanted so badly to just disappear. I didn’t accept the news well at all. It started feeling hard to be around anyone, to be around my co-workers, I was in rec hockey and it felt painful to be around people who were happy – so I eventually stopped going. I didn’t want my husband to know how much I was struggling so I would wait until he fell asleep and silently cry until I fell asleep.
I eventually reached a point of having to take a mental health leave from work to put the pieces back together. To some degree this journey felt like coming back home to my Self, in a way I never really felt before. I finally found joy in the journey.
Then I became a mom, and again, I struggled to adjust and felt alone in it. I struggled in the form of feeling angry and resentful towards my husband where we fought nearly daily. I felt overwhelmed and overstimulated by all the tasks being a mom brought which brought more fighting but also brought feeling triggered by my three month old daughter crying. I felt completely lost in who I was as a person, how to be a family and most of all – how to enjoy any of it. If my daughter had any hope in thriving in life or in relationships – I knew I needed to make a change. My outside world looked great, my inside world? Not so much.
HOW IT ALL BEGAN…
“what got me here isn’t the here I want for my little girl..”
I was tired of fighting with my partner all the time. I was tired of feeling constant overwhelm. I was tired of the inner battle with myself. How I’m experiencing things every day, the constant stress, it needs to change.
There was a moment I remember looking at my little three month old and it was like time slowed in that moment. It was a beautiful sunny day, the sun was shining through our A frame windows and I knew “what got me here isn’t the here I want for her – I want her to wake up feeling excited about her life, not feeling behind, angry and lost in it.”
I knew I needed to do an overhaul, because how could I possibly guide her there if I’m not there myself? I wanted her to feel confident and secure in her relationship, I did not. I wanted her to be equipped to handle life and relationship challenges where she can adapt and grow, instead of feel powerless. I wanted her to be able to thrive in her life, because though I had many things, I was not. My relationships felt like a mess, finances brought stress no matter how much I was making and my health was never where I wanted it to be,
It was then that I went all in.
One mediumship course where I practiced readings for a short while but ultimately I noticed a pattern. Women were coming to me with this same sense of frustration in their life, they wanted more in their relationships and their life. In every area.
I deep dove into mindset, hypnosis, emotional freedom technique, neuro-linguistic programming certifications. Then human design. And then came trauma work, understanding nervous system support and the science behind spirituality. I dove & I dove deep.
To say my closest relationships have changed would be an understatement, including the one with myself.
How I handle myself in challenging situations – mentally, emotionally and physically is so incredibly different. It’s allowed me to respond completely differently, from a place of feeling calm. The way I understand others has completely changed, offering a more rounded perspective, allowing me to connect deeper with those I love.
I still struggle on occasion, I’m human. But now? I know how to get out of the struggle, how to use it to set myself free. How to change what I don’t want into what I do want. Some call it manipulation, my mentor and I call it “mastering ourself.”
Looking back at how dark things have felt reminds me how much I’ve grown. I see my husband and toddler reflect this back to me daily.
Now? I help women break free of the emotional turmoil, the trauma responses, the thoughts keeping them up at night, the judgements they are making about themselves so they can experience more depth in their life regardless of what life might bring for challenges. Our emotional responses are our pathway to our unforgotten self where we can finally live that more. More isn’t what is outside of us, but unlocking what’s inside of us. Helping you connect more with those you love.
get to know me!
top 3 fave countries you’ve visited
Kenya, Thailand & Greece and Italy would be tied!
favorite movie
the proposal…”the sweat drop down my balls..”
human design
3/5 mental projector
SECRET TALENT
having a good time
I’D SPEND my whole paycheck on
travel
COFFEE order
matcha latte
MY HAPPY PLACE
adventuring with family
MY GUILTY PLEASURE
skor blizzard from DQ
forever ON REPEAT
freedom by kygo
favorite book
Harry Potter feeds my dreamy mind
I believe in…
001.
presence is the best medicine
I believe anything we could ever want + need is available in the present moment. And if what we are experiencing/feeling doesn’t reflect that, we’re living a trauma drama response keeping us from truly being in the present moment. A moment to meet ourselves.
002.
Freedom is you
There are circumstances or situations we can find ourselves in that we so badly want to change. The answer to making that change happen lies within you, not *it* or them. And that starts with Self regulation + integration and eventually Self Mastery. You are the solution – every time.
003.
if you want them to change
There is either an insecurity within you being triggered or there is something you’re judging within yourself, it’s just easier to see it in others rather then getting vulnerable and honest with yourself about it. Bringing light to where you are yet to free.